ok.. 2nd post in a day... goes to show how bored i am!!!

Alright... i just got back from lunch N a visit to my grandma @ TTSH... she was admitted last night coz of lung infection.. which sounds serious.. but actually it's just that she has too much phlegm and thus, havin difficulty breathing... But all's good and she will be discharged tomorrow.. Just that when i was there, she looked so frail and tiny in bed... My heart was torn.. even though we're not very close like most other grandparent and grandchildren relationships, i still love her very much.. Seein her and yet not being able to ease her discomfort in any way, that sucks...
So while i was there, i just held her fragile hands in mine, give her a massage and tried feedin her, but she just had no appetite.. .and was very quiet... but she's normally quiet, so no complaints...

yup, so that was a hellava emotional roller coaster over lunch and now i'm just moody with lotsa thoughts.. like i cant help but think about how everyone's life starts off in a hospital and that every woman has to end up in a hospital bed, like it or not... (unless you dont intend to give birth)... and how thankful i am for everything.... that my friends and family or people around me for that matter, are healthy and hopefully happy...
That how come people come into my life miraculously, totally out of the blue. Which i have come to think of as fate. How you mould your life to what you want it to be like...

With that, i end off with the song "Fly Away" by Corrinne May.. my all time favourite...

When will you be home?" she asks

as we watch the planes take off

We both know we have no clear answer

to where my dreams may lead

She's watched me as I crawled and stumbled

As a child, she was my world

And now to let me go, I know she bleeds

and yet she says to me

You can fly so high

Keep your gaze upon the sky

I'll be praying every step along the way

Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart

I love you too much to make you stay

Baby fly away

Autumn leaves fell into spring time and

Silver-painted hair

Daddy called one evening saying

"We need you. Please come back"

When I saw her laying in her bed

Fragile as a child

Pale just like an angel taking flight

I held her as I cried

You can fly so high

Keep your gaze upon the sky

I'll be praying every step along the way

Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart

I love you too much to make you stay

Baby fly away