May's coming to an end... felt like it went away in a jiffy..
Since the BKK trip... feels like i'm perpetually on a holiday mood till now.. which is bad.. =P
perhaps it's because of a few getaways coming up in the next few months... though not yet confirmed.. i've got a leisure dive in june, advanced course in july.. and my parents are going macau in july... my dad kinda hinted that my mum wants me to go shopping with her there, so i guess i'm gonna go with them.. will be fun anyways, since i haven't been there before..

i'm getting so ready to just dump my responsibilities at work and move on... But i'm still waiting for somebody to take me in.. if all goes well there, i will have lots to work on... and will be busier to start the learning process all over again and get to know new colleagues.. pretty exciting actually..

this week passed by in a jiffy... had meetings every other day coz of my project.. glad that it is almost done.. so irritating to have to see others' black faces or show me black faces for that matter..... but what to do? i have to chase them and consolidate everyone's work coz that's what my boss asked me to do... and i hate it when those stupid technicians talk to me as if they are tryin to bluff me or something, not taking me seriously... got me really pissed off yesterday that i think i totally gave a black face coz they've really crossed the limit.. discrimination still exists...

i'm lookin forward to the weekend.. basically had lots of alone time in the last 2 weeks, had lots to think about... now that you're back, we can probably spend some time together finally..

Tomorrow's the sundown marathon... to run or not to run? =P

Right...
My Bangkok trip came and went...
Faster than i can even remember!!!!!
=( So fast!!!

it's been 3 weeks since my entry.. didn't realise... been really really busy, up to my neck for the past few weeks... New procedures, machines, acquiring volumes... n i was arrowed to take charge of the whole backend planning... sheesh.. so even before i went Bangkok, i had all these homework i had to do.. really rushed like mad to do up whatever i can.. after i got back, i worked on vesak day to get things done... before heading over to shushu's for wii-sak day.. it was really fun.. and for some reason, she's super HOOKED to bang bang..hhaha

been trying really hard to move on.. going for interviews, applying and stuff... so hopefully i'll get a call this week on the offer... keepin my fingers crossed... i'm really kinda overloaded as it is now...
Just got shot by this b**** as well... tryin to make things difficult for me in the meeting.. if not for her being pregnant, i wouldn't have been so nice to her... damn...

Anyways, i'm hooked to this 4 person wii thingy... haha, it's really cool.. great workout for my arms which ached unbelievably (from just shaking the remote) the next day...

And for the first time in a month i think, we started training on saturday... i was super unfit.. tired after running a bit only... and thanks to mama for all those exercises, i had to crawl out of bed on sunday morning!!!!!! haha...
oh ya.. and i'm kinda in love with the naan at e dinner place we went to...
GOTTA go there some time soon for another round... hahaha

A week has passed..
Had a very nice labour day with my family... brought my mum swimming.. had high tea, did some shopping and got bed sheets.. and before we know it, it's dinner time already.
Time flies...
But the weather these days is really bad bad bad...
Friday, i was called up to collect my equipment at the last minute, thank goodness i haven't got much planned.. besides a dinner date.
Luckily Mr Eugene picked me up from work.. so we headed to selegie together.. by the time we chose and collected everything, it was 8pm. After steamboat dinner, it was about 930pm.. Goodness.. so much so for my dinner date. Anyways his meeting ended only at 10pm.. So by the time we all went to Dempsey, i was just on time to meet him.. but i felt bad coz machiam like i am gettin a free ride there and didn't join them, but i guess it's fine... and speaking of which, my equipment is still in his car!!
gosh.....
So i had a Nachos supper instead after some drinks... superbly sinful, but tasty! =) we cant live without good food.. but he was so intoxicated and KOed..
Anyways, the long planned Saturday finally came... we were having our annual seasonal debrief @ Gillian's place.. got a lift from the Liu sisters @ 6pm.. This Begonia place is really out of the world.. Impossible to walk there, i feel... =P
Anyways, did loads of barbequing (been a long time since i did that).. the food stuffs were really well prepared, so cookin them was quite a breeze.. Only drawback was the weather.. it was SUPER DUPER hot and humid..
After tonnes of food, we started the meeting official and this time round, we are gonna do a fund raising to get money for league and coach fees... It all ended at 11 ish and i was dead tired by then...
Sunday was yet another family day.. caught up with my brother.. haven't seem him for 3 weeks! And stupid him went to buy some King's ice cream that was on sale.. bout like 50 sticks lo! goodness.. how on earth are we gonna finish 'em...

Monday came and it was not a very nice weather in office... coz of the recent retrenchment news... giving everyone the jitters.. makes me all the more determined to leave the company.. so i'm waiting and hoping to get the call from this company that i have high hopes for... If all goes well, i'll probably work there...
This in turn gives me another problem coz i may need to be out of singapore for the first part of it.. oh well, i'll just see what comes along.. this is just the preliminary stage only anyways...
Soooooooo lookin forward to my BKK trip!! =)

Why are you so helpful?
Are you being nice to me?
Or do you have an ulterior motive?
How long can i maintain this?
To accept this status quo.
With no expectations.
Too easy on you.
I'm imagining or hallucinating.
Things feel so right.
Yet they dont seem right.
The ball is in your court.
I shake myself back to reality.
Telling myself time and again,
What i think may not be what it will be.
You've got me really confused.
Waiting, waiting and waiting.
I'm lost.
I tell myself to give it till Sep.
And i was told it ends in Feb.
That is friggin 5 more months.
Should i or should i not?
Ponder i shall.
In my shell, i will.

i'm easily shaken.
A phone call or note and i start recalling things. I was surprised to get a text from him..
After a few weeks of solitude and not answering the very question that i asked.. One that meant a lot to me.
With that, i decided to shut things out. And yet, his birthday came and my heart softened.
wondering if he is coping fine. I'm not regretting... maybe not yet, but just worried, which i dont know why either.
Now suddenly your initiative caught me by surprise.. I'm glad in a way..