Happy Halloween!!! to myself

Wooohoooo, so exciting!!
Happy halloween..... haha, i'll dress up in my pjs and scare myself to death.. duhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, how unexciting.. pple here dun even know WHAT's halloween.. goodness gracious!!
i'm still in shock.. so much so for worldwide recession.... haha, i always wonder why would people rush to get phones that have just been launched as they are highly overpriced and when we ALL know the price will DROP... now i know why...
To love or hate Xperia? =P

Damage has been done...

Uh oh.. this is it....... i have succumbed to temptations at last! hahaha, been scouring online shopping websites these 2 days due to a very very sudden urge to spend money! With a simple click and an email, i have purchased like 3 or 4 items!!!

It all started when my friend sent me this link and i saw 2 dresses that look quite nice and affordable, so i just randomly sent an email to order for fun.. BUT, both OUT OF STOCK!!! That got me started on online shopping. I was ready to splurge @ my fav VS webbie, but decided against it due to shipping costs and there weren't many new, nice and cheap dresses. made me even MORE eager to BUY something.. haha, so after hunting down many many many websites, i made my first purchase at 3:11pm.. =P

Oopsie... hahaha, a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do...

The Spirit of Giving...

A conversation yesterday set me thinking about this. Why do we bother to give gifts on birthdays, anniversaries, xmas, valentine's day etc..?
My mum always says "Dont buy things, so troublesome.. just eat". And when i give her a gift, the smile on her face makes my day. Deep down somewhere, every individual likes receiving presents. It shows you're on someone's mind/heart and that person takes the effort to make the purchase. Nowadays, to save time or be more practical, we end up giving "gift" vouchers... which is convenient i must say, but the meaning behind giving a present is lost, nonetheless.

I guess guys especially, take words at face value. I believe even if your folks or friends say a dinner treat will do and yet, you bought a small gift for them, they'll be really happy... coz with time, people take it for granted and forget all about the significance or meaning of gift giving, a sad fact of life.
Such a paradox..

Moral obligations of gift-giving leads to reciprocity in gift exchange.
Whatever happened to the relative meaning of "pure" gift giving, characterized by the absence of expectations of return gifts?
Gift giving occasions are opportunities to affirm one's personal bonds. To most people, there is no exchange rate in this respect between time/attentiveness and money. Time and attentiveness affirm personal bonds. Money cannot. No doubt about it...
However, there's this factor: "Affection-value added" - meaning that a certain item might not have a great value in itself, but the intention and affection behind adds a great amount of value. Buying chocolate or flowers for a girl is all about that - usually the girl would herself be able to buy all the chocolate and all the flowers she would want, hence the flowers and chocolate is merely signs of affection and on a more subtle level, recognition.

According to popular psychology, a significant gift is never just a gift, but something that successfully communicates how well you know and understand the person. Jewelers love to capitalize on this thought. If you really knew your wife, they hint, then you'd know she wants a diamond.
Well, just so that the significance of gift giving is not lost, just to recap on the meaning of certain special gifts and why some women swear by them... Ladies, let your guys know! =) Guys, for your knowledge... =P

Roses
Rose has been a symbol for love since ancient days. There is an interesting story about the creation of rose in Greek mythology: Chloris, the Goddess of flowers created rose by giving life to lifeless body of a nymph; Aphrodite, the Goddess of love gave her beauty and Dionysus, the God of wine presented her nectar to give her sweet scent; the three Graces gave her charm, brightness and joy. This is the reason for its popularity among lovers.
Of all roses, red rose is the ultimate symbol of love filled with romance and passion that signifies “I love you” and lilac rose signifies love at first sight. According to some traditions one red rose stands for "an only love", eleven roses stand for "a favorite", ninety nine roses mean " forever love" and hundred roses mean " marry me".

Diamond ring
Ancient Romans considered the ring as love symbol for the unbroken circle symbolizes eternity. In another story, it is said that cupid's arrows are tipped with diamonds. Gradually giving a diamond ring became a promise that they will soon become husband and wife. Presenting a diamond ring gives an eternal sense of love; it is a promise to someone and symbolizes fidelity.

Chocolates
In ancient days, chocolates are considered a gift from God as they are associated with spiritual wisdom and sexual powers. Aztecs believed that chocolates are associated with the Goddess of love and fertility, Xochiquetzal. Chocolate works like energy booster as the chocolate consumption releases a chemical into the body very similar to what is produced when you are in love. That's why chocolates are so popular among lovers.

Other matters

Been soo caught up with those stuff on my mind that i forgot to write what i was supposed to, in the prev post..hahaha

FIRST: My surprise plan kinda got foiled due to someone's itchy backside... But good thing i found out early too, before i spent the money. Now there's another HEADACHE, what to buy?!?!

SECOND: I am sooooooooooooo gonna go try the Canele desserts when i get back!!! All those "thick and rich" talk makes me drooooooooool.

THIRD: I want a PROPER dim sum buffet =P

FOURTH (and Last): Now that i get to drive around here, i feel more independent and much much better. At least i do not have to wait for others anymore, not so reliant. Which i absolutely HATE! Except i gotta be a part-time chauffeur but its on the way, so i dont mind...... What to do, i'm independent and resent reliance.. Coz it makes me feel helpless and useless.. Individualistic. =P

Secrets...

A recent episode last Thursday left me expanding to the brim of explosion!! It's fun at first, but has become a little bit tiring and to the point of me feeling bad... But i got over it fine =)

So... my long weekend here was coz of some Sultan's birthday on Friday and here i am working on freakin DEEPAVALI!!! So lonely... everyone's not online!! =(
Had a long quiet and peaceful weekend! seems like the previous weekends zipped past coz i was occupied. I felt relaxed the past few days.. But i know in the next FOUR weekends to come, before i have a chance to head home again, will CRAWL and evolve into a strong desire for....... arghh, dun think too far.

Finally did some updating on my facebook and then i realised how big a thing it has become coz EVERYONE's doing updates on it. Even more so than MSN... Had to think twice before uploading some pictures. Sensorship...

Most of the time i was just being a drama-mama (yes, i finished watching Devil Beside You in 1.5 days!!!) and playing games on my new toy. I must say time flies when u play games... haha..

since my fb girls have been going on about the 'devil beside you' show for some time and debating whether mike he or kingone is cuter.....
My verdict: I LIKE MIKE HE!!!!!! Omgggg, he's sooooooooooo HOT =P
that's why they say girls like bad boys... i totally agree.. Kingone looks quite blur and innocent and i dun like his bushy eyebrows. haha. I didn't know Yang Ping is JAP!! and i think that Meidi is soooooooo NOT sweet at all!! =) But yeah, i think i do have a thing for basketballers too.. hahaha, coz they're tallllllllllllllll..

ok, shall stop acting like a bimbo and fawn over them.. Other than my entertainments, nothing really exciting over the weekend. OH actually one of my kids made my day one nite coz he was askin me over MSN if i would like to continue teaching them when i return. My heart SWELLED.. coz i miss them soooooooooooo much =( and given the current situation about my work, made me wonder whether it was all worth it.. to give them up for my job. Well, anyways, i'd DIE to teach them again, such lovely kids...

To be honest, i felt insecure when i gave them up coz at that pt in time, of coz they said they'll miss me and that when i return, see if i wanna teach them again. But i spelt out clearly to the parents that it's not fair for the child's progress to keep changin and all.. I had to hunt around for teachers for them and part of me actually hoped that they do not like their new teacher =P it was also a test for myself to see how i measure up to other teachers outside. As such, their STILL wanting me to continue teachin them really boosts my morale. *Touched*..

Spent a great deal of time day-dreaming as well. Lookin at pictures on facebook... I concluded that its only been such a short time! Yet i'm thinking way too far sometimes.. but it sure feels like a LONG LONG time already. As if it's been years... i was told @ the bus terminal, "it feels like 6 months has passed and its time for you to come home".. i really did wish for that. But hearing that means a lot to me tho it didn't make it easier for myself.
Perhaps i'm emo, perhaps i think too much, perhaps i'm too free.. but bottomline is i ought to focus on the PRESENT and not think too much about the future coz its impt to be on the same page. Else one party will be disappointed?? Something's wrong with me.. i feel so comfy around them that it's scaring me. Too fast, too soon..

On a side note, my friends have been such lovely darlings encouragin me and keepin me company. Esp my sec sch mates, beloved teammates and ex-colleagues (when they're free =P)
I'm thankful for that. I wanna be stronger, to be infallible to all those yearnings, like a guy.
As of today, i'd have been here for exactly 3 months! Those reading this will be thinkin "wow, so fast!" Trust me, not fast at all.. i'm plannin my leave such that i'll be outta here in 2.5 months........

Give me Strength!!

Treasure life...

Was just chatting with an ex-colleague, who told me his cousin just passed away at a young age of 35+... Really sad coz she's still young and has 2 girls, 3 and 5 years old left behind..
Life's unfair, isn't it?
Made me think back of dear Sam... How are you? I hope life's treating you good up there! Hope your boys are doing great too.. I miss you.............
When you're down n out, think of those who do not have a chance to 'feel' happy. Smile and things will get better. At least you still have a chance to live life the way you want to. =)

For me, life's just getting started it seems... and i'm enjoying every bit. So all i want is to be happy! =) CHEERIOSSssssss...

Ben n Mal's Wedding @ St Regis!

Proudly presents.... 23rd SCMC!! =) Fusion Dessert...

Yiwen n I!! (Gawd, i miss her)... Plus her bump.. =)

23rd SCMC again..

Hon "Trashes" =P

John Jacob's Ballroom

Cold Dish..

Lala n I..

My New Toy! =)

NINTENDO DS LITE!! =)

Thanks sooooooooo much!! =D

Contradicting..

Sometimes, i want time to fly faster, like now.
Sometimes, i want time to slow to a halt, like yesterday.
No wonder they say women are hard to please.. but seems like this applies to guys too.. =P

My weekend passed by way toooo quickly.. sob sob =(
the wedding was very interesting.. will upload some pics when i get back...
I enjoyed the next day n the day after too... so many things to do, to go, to see.. so little time...
Can never be satisfied i guess and its never enough?

Finally met the granny and managed to spend a little bit more time just staring at wuffy.
Such a cute darling with such beautiful big and innocent eyes!
I'm touched that you sacrificed your precious sleep to keep me company!!

I'm zombified now, havin slept only about 2 hours? Need to catch up on my sleep tonight... =)

If only: I can quit my job n go back to Singapore right now!

Thanks for the NDSL!! =)

Helpless...

I dont like it when i feel helpless... That's just how i am.
When my friends are down, i try to go all out to make them feel better. Be it old, young, boy or girl.. Maybe thats y sometimes people get the wrong impression?
But i just do what i do best, be myself! haha, crack jokes, act silly...
Esp for my loved ones, i really hope that my mere presence or antics take their mind of stressful or traumatizing experiences...
You know how sometimes when you're so down, you see a loved one and your spirit lifts up immediately and ur lips curve up instead of down?
I wish i have that special power... haha
I can only wish and hope that you get over it and not be bogged down by it...
That's all i can do..

All I ask for...

I still have nothing much to do at work, yet i am not blogging like when i just came... why? Simply coz life here is really boring and mundane.. Nothing interestin in office, only things for me to bitch about. And what i have for my meals... THAT's ALL! My only entertainment is MSN.. and Occasional work i need to do.. Is this really what i want?
I really would like to go for a holiday end of this year, but i guess my schedule does not permit. Even if i want a weekend getaway, other people may not be free =(
End of last year i went on a road trip to Europe... I miss it!
At least i have been to Bangkok with my gal pals and Macau with my folks. Else it would have been a very miserable 2008..

All this wedding.. or rather Proposal stuff is getting to me and i cant help but go google and check these stuff out. Living my daydream, yes i know.. i cant help it! Have got a soft spot for such sweet occasions! Haha, at least i know they have just PROMISED to spend their life together, but not at the "dotted line" stage. It really scares me at the thought of my good friends all getting married. I fear that after that, life changes and there will be no space in their life for me anymore. Well, at least maybe until they have kids and have all grown up?
I dont wanna be left alone and i think i love my friends too much for them to be snatched by a 'guy' as well.. Women are selfish, arent they?

Just dont 4get to live out our childhood fantasy of having high tea together after we all get married! =)

Is to have you come back safe and sound...

Pictures!!

View from the Sampan....

The famous Stuffed Crab!

MyBelgium Chocolate Haagen Daaz........ Slurp slurp =)

Absolutely enjoying my dinner @ Mexica...

Poolside Bar!

HyattRegency Swimming Pool...

Oops, my Fish is sooooo YUMMY!! =)

The Highlight for dinner: LOBSTER!!!

Compliments from Hyatt: Chocolates Delight! =)

Withdrawal Symptoms

Suddenly, the weekend just zipped past unknowingly! Goodness... i'm sooooooooo missing it already =( Since yesterday.. Wish it could have lasted till last night at least... But its alright, we didnt know whether there was gonna be any changes or not... At least we had SOME time...

Hyatt was beautiful and comfy!!! I'll put up some pictures when i'm home.. =P and dinner @ Mexica was extravagant... first time i felt HAPPY eating in ulu Kuantan..
It just all ended too quickly..
i'm starting to countdown already...

Thank you!!! =)

TGIF

It's Frrrrrrriiiiiiidddddddaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy =P
Hooray!!!
hahhahaha =)

I'm sad when my friends are sad/down.... wish i can be there to cheer her up...
Jia you! i'm sure you can pull through this..

On a side note, i'm so proud of myself.. i can actually STILL DRIVE a manual car.. mwahahahaha
well, my engine died like twice last night though... but still quite a mean feat for myself.. since its been 4 years since i last had to touch a GEAR.. haha, now my hands n legs are kept busy all the time..... Stress..

Wedding bells are ringing

OK, i 4got to mention the SHOCKIN NEWS i heard on my last day in SIN...
my sec school GAL PAL is gettin married!!! Her bf proposed to her durin her biz trip...
Quite a romantic and 'surprise' proposal compared to those i've heard....
so happy for her!!! =)

Suddenly, application of HDB flats seem to be the talk of the town... but its like way way down in my priority list. Time's not right and i guess we wont be eligible anyways..
I was just thinkin, the day that anyone of my closest buddies get married, esp my woman, i'll cry... haha silly me...

Yaaaaaaaaay!!!

Wow, i really took a long break from blogging coz of my trip back home.. i felt so gd back at home that i didn't feel like comin back Msia... I cant wait for the weekend to come!!! =)

Accomplished and did so many things during my trip back, made it all the more worthwhile... hahaa, almost everyday was filled with activity, so much so that i fell sick when i flew back to Msia and had to see doctor on Monday coz i was so damn sick.. Lost my voice totally, sore throat, fever, flu, cough.. you name it. I slept a lot and am finally feelin better now... i had incentive to get better b4 the weekend comes anyways.. haha =P

One fact stands, that the weight i put on here is APPARENT... so no more gorgin on zhi char... else i'm gonna be the laughing stock.. haiii...

The first thing that i did when i got home was to go for FB training.. haha, it was a friendly @ TP and i almost died... and the training after that, i think the PT 3.2km run under the hot sun killed me and made me really sick... but oh well, wth..haha... met up with some of the seniors after that @ HV for zhi char and chilled out @ Coffee Club.. it was great! we have never ending things to talk about.. Always very interesting.. but it was indeed FULL of updates..haha =)

Met up with Steph 3 times in a short span of 1 week.. goodness..haha, hope she's not sick of me.. =P Also met up with the 5M, Doreen, CC, Siwei, HP folks (n of coz drinks @ Villa Bali, courtesy of V n H)...

Last but not the least, i got to meet him.. it was tough, after so long... n i couldn't sit still @ all, waitin to see him.. after all, i had already been home for 5 days by then and haven seen him.......... Well, things were planned such that it was a stresssful day for us... but it all turned out really well, doncha think? =)
The first thing that caught my eyes were how bright his eyes gleamed with mischief when i saw him... i almost 4got that shine.. and was mesmerized... we only had 3 days. =(
Life's tough huh? i hate the scheduler.. arghhhhh....

sigh... oh! and for the first time, the 5M (minus 2) met up with one another's partners... i'm soooooo glad it wasn't awkward at all... such great fun! heeee

SO much so for my holidays.. back to reality... =

TCCSiweiMy Woman!!
Happy Birthday Mum!! =)

Kor KorDad n Mum (one of the nicest pics of them haha =P)(Almost) Full House

Withdrawal Symptoms...

Time's flyin by way way toooooo fast.. =(
It's almost been a week...
Last minute changes, there goes my Fri (half the day), Sat and Sun...
Sigh, it ain't easy at all...
Gotta live with it...