I knew this was coming when i allowed myself to get into it...
And i fell for it more than i expected myself too... sinking deeper than i thought i would...
So much so that it hurts, coz what i feared seems to be comin true...
Causing hurt to people around me.. I so wanted to get away back then, now i'm havin 2nd thoughts.. n it just isn't helpin that people ard me are makin me think that i'm makin a bad choice... doesn't help that my parents are constantly naggin already..

Last night was torture for me.. the short time we talked, it just made me feel from bad to terrible to horrible to torturous to pain... i was surprised by my own emotions actually, that i felt so much.. maybe it was PMS.. hahaha
Coz i just basically felt like sheet.. what with the diving trip i'm supposed to go to.. i'm beginnin to wonder if its such a gd idea after all... i'll see how it goes.. right now, they seem to have problem findin the receipt for the deposit i paid.. if they're gonna deny that i've made payment, i'll just forgo the deposit and give it a miss readily...

am in a torn state now actually.. then again, i'm always thinkin about other people.. tryin my best to accommodate n help them... perhaps i should think more for myself... haha