Negotiations can be such a tiring thing….. Going to and fro.. Especially through exchanges of email… Through phone is slightly better.. But it always sucks when you're talkin to someone who cant make a decision and needs to get back to you on every single thing... gosh, it's driving me crazy..
Having too much bargainin power can be a bad thing it seems…

Looks like the road forward is more or less paved.. Sacrifices need to be made.. Was just tellin woman today about being very reluctant to give up my kids, but she said its okie, as if it was something soooooo minor… and when I come to think of it, it is... Jeez.. i really gotta learn to look at the bigger things in life and have an open heart.. Maybe that explains the difference in where we are in our lives now... she's always the well organised and well thought out person... hahaha
anyways, that helped me a lot in making my decisions…

looking forward to the few months away actually.. Away from everything else and just chill and relax (other than work).. It definitely will help me make my time pass by easier so that by the time I come back, it's more or less judgement day... the intricate complicated stuff should come to an end and we will know how to move on from here... I'll either be in ecstasy or devastated..

Thinking about it, it's the first time I leave home for a long period of time… People go on exchange for months or those who study overseas get out for years… now I'll know how it feels like.. But it's somewhat different, coz studying and working are 2 different things.. if u dont do well in your studies, try harder and after all, most of the exchange programmes are for us to go there and have fun! working, however is like venturing into the total unknown. Accommodation, travelling around, social life everything is a mystery. Unlike a school, you can make fast and close friends, working wise, people may not care less about you.. think about your workplace now, there aren't many who will bother to pay more attention to your life or even listen to your troubles...

Also, if you get into trouble, you jolly well gotta settle it on your own coz it's your bread and butter. You cant run away from it or get a 2nd chance.. That's the reality in life..
Oh well, I'm perfectly fine with all these, just that my parents are gonna have to get used to me not being around for so long..haha, after all even when I was stayin in hall, I see them every weekend..

So anyone with nice entertainin movies, dramas and songs, please give me so that when I get lonely, I have entertainment! Mwahahaha =P