Renewed!!

After all the stress and worry, hiding at home to study for his exams, he finally passed and has renewed his license. Sometimes i think he's just putting too much pressure on himself. Doing fine is not enough, has to be good! It's good, but can be taxing... Now there's just the last leg back from Amsterdam, hopefully the evil captain be less evil.. hah

Start of a new term, barely breathed... Starting to form groups again and ploughing through readings and discussing projects. I need to split myself into parts! =( Guess i badly need a holiday, feeling depressed and moody more. Even when i met up with my friend for lunch, i feel that i'm just spaced out, i don't know what i want anymore and i am just waiting for things to happen. There are so many things that i was doing which i feel i shouldn't be doing until i am given the direction. After awhile, you just get tired... Tired of second guessing what's gonna happen, when its gonna happen.

I suppose i'm just DARN tired... my mundane routine lifeless lifestyle.. Partly coz of work and school (which i need to socialize quite a bit), i'm becoming a stranger even to my friends. i talk to my friend in 'socializing language'.. its unbelievable.. i did that twice when i met up with woman the other day and i got so disgusted by myself!!! i'm losing ME!!!!!

Sigh.