What's wrong with me?

I dunno what came onto me last night. Just felt sad and down... Moody..
Maybe it didn't start off on a right note. Maybe it was the look. I just thought, perhaps after 4 days of non-existence, eyes can be PEELED from work for just 5-10min to really just talk to me and do nothing else... Maybe that was just too much to ask for. Or maybe the plain sheet feeling was just overwhelming.. i dunno

Somehow, something that i was lookin forward to (very very much), blurred in front of my eyes. All of a sudden, i dreaded it. The ends of my lips cant curve up. I just cant help it...
Wrong start as i say. Slammed again by not including me in the misery and problems simply coz i dont understand.. Doesn't help either...

This makes me think back of my parents, like how my mum must have felt. Everytime she asks my dad bout his work, he just glazes through with ok or not ok. He says a little more, she asks 'what is it?' and she's promptly shut out with a 'tell you, you also dun understand'... i always feel bad for her whenever i see this coz havin been cooped up at home for so many years and not so good in english, a lot times you need more patience talkin to her. You cant just tell her things, you gotta EXPLAIN it, otherwise how can you expect her to understand?
I always get pissed at my dad coz of this... Maybe its just me.... again...

From this, I have also learnt that couples need to be able to talk to each other about work. Since your daily life constitutes like 50% in office.. if you go out, the only time you spend at home is to sleep. Imagine if you cant confide in your partner about your work, thats missin out on 50% of info about what goes on in his/her life. Isn't it impt then to be able to confide in each other? Otherwise, you end up talkin to your fellow colleagues bout it and thats when trouble lurks, if you confide in an opposite sex. Nothing wrong of coz.. but since you should be able to talk about everythin n anythin under the sky with your partner, how can you omit this huge 50% chunk? i dun want to end up in a situation, Whereby there's an invisible wall on certain topics not to be breached upon. That's where communication comes in...

Am i askin for too much again? Do others have the same sentiments? Just a thought..

i hope i didn't make anyone feel bad. Well, i know i dont have such strong impacts or other less emo creatures will probably be able to just shut out these stuff and go on doing their own things... i was really excited.. like leaping with joy, floating high high in a sky and i just got pricked. my bubble got burst and i free fall-ed.. i dont feel like going back anymore.