Secrets...

A recent episode last Thursday left me expanding to the brim of explosion!! It's fun at first, but has become a little bit tiring and to the point of me feeling bad... But i got over it fine =)

So... my long weekend here was coz of some Sultan's birthday on Friday and here i am working on freakin DEEPAVALI!!! So lonely... everyone's not online!! =(
Had a long quiet and peaceful weekend! seems like the previous weekends zipped past coz i was occupied. I felt relaxed the past few days.. But i know in the next FOUR weekends to come, before i have a chance to head home again, will CRAWL and evolve into a strong desire for....... arghh, dun think too far.

Finally did some updating on my facebook and then i realised how big a thing it has become coz EVERYONE's doing updates on it. Even more so than MSN... Had to think twice before uploading some pictures. Sensorship...

Most of the time i was just being a drama-mama (yes, i finished watching Devil Beside You in 1.5 days!!!) and playing games on my new toy. I must say time flies when u play games... haha..

since my fb girls have been going on about the 'devil beside you' show for some time and debating whether mike he or kingone is cuter.....
My verdict: I LIKE MIKE HE!!!!!! Omgggg, he's sooooooooooo HOT =P
that's why they say girls like bad boys... i totally agree.. Kingone looks quite blur and innocent and i dun like his bushy eyebrows. haha. I didn't know Yang Ping is JAP!! and i think that Meidi is soooooooo NOT sweet at all!! =) But yeah, i think i do have a thing for basketballers too.. hahaha, coz they're tallllllllllllllll..

ok, shall stop acting like a bimbo and fawn over them.. Other than my entertainments, nothing really exciting over the weekend. OH actually one of my kids made my day one nite coz he was askin me over MSN if i would like to continue teaching them when i return. My heart SWELLED.. coz i miss them soooooooooooo much =( and given the current situation about my work, made me wonder whether it was all worth it.. to give them up for my job. Well, anyways, i'd DIE to teach them again, such lovely kids...

To be honest, i felt insecure when i gave them up coz at that pt in time, of coz they said they'll miss me and that when i return, see if i wanna teach them again. But i spelt out clearly to the parents that it's not fair for the child's progress to keep changin and all.. I had to hunt around for teachers for them and part of me actually hoped that they do not like their new teacher =P it was also a test for myself to see how i measure up to other teachers outside. As such, their STILL wanting me to continue teachin them really boosts my morale. *Touched*..

Spent a great deal of time day-dreaming as well. Lookin at pictures on facebook... I concluded that its only been such a short time! Yet i'm thinking way too far sometimes.. but it sure feels like a LONG LONG time already. As if it's been years... i was told @ the bus terminal, "it feels like 6 months has passed and its time for you to come home".. i really did wish for that. But hearing that means a lot to me tho it didn't make it easier for myself.
Perhaps i'm emo, perhaps i think too much, perhaps i'm too free.. but bottomline is i ought to focus on the PRESENT and not think too much about the future coz its impt to be on the same page. Else one party will be disappointed?? Something's wrong with me.. i feel so comfy around them that it's scaring me. Too fast, too soon..

On a side note, my friends have been such lovely darlings encouragin me and keepin me company. Esp my sec sch mates, beloved teammates and ex-colleagues (when they're free =P)
I'm thankful for that. I wanna be stronger, to be infallible to all those yearnings, like a guy.
As of today, i'd have been here for exactly 3 months! Those reading this will be thinkin "wow, so fast!" Trust me, not fast at all.. i'm plannin my leave such that i'll be outta here in 2.5 months........

Give me Strength!!