I am sooooooooooooooooooooooo disappointed...
Nothing can describe how i feel now.. just sucks big time..
I hate this and i hate myself for feelin like this.....
i was Extremely happy and lookin forward to my dive trip and voila!
i needn't explain further... KNS!!

I know it's not your fault and i'm not sayin it is but somehow indirectly, it's still your fault..
Doesn't make sense? Means i'm still a girl.. this is totally girl language..

Urrrrrggggggghhhhhhhhhhhh... it's so frustrating!!!!!

Well that aside, i manage to be rid of these feelings for an hours by a mega shoppin spree at mango.. they're havin a sale!! and my colleague and i went crazy... spent a few hundred dollars.. As always, i hate going to the sale and seein stuff that i bought some time back much cheaper now.. So i always have to console myself by saying that at least i enjoyed 10% discount back then and they're run out of sizes..haha.. it was awesome, gettin there before EVERYTHING gets very very MESSED Up!!

so now my thoughts are back to the sucky issue, totally regretting some bad things i said..
i'm gettin a headache from all these thoughts fillin my brain.. i need a break... =(