Why are you so helpful?
Are you being nice to me?
Or do you have an ulterior motive?
How long can i maintain this?
To accept this status quo.
With no expectations.
Too easy on you.
I'm imagining or hallucinating.
Things feel so right.
Yet they dont seem right.
The ball is in your court.
I shake myself back to reality.
Telling myself time and again,
What i think may not be what it will be.
You've got me really confused.
Waiting, waiting and waiting.
I'm lost.
I tell myself to give it till Sep.
And i was told it ends in Feb.
That is friggin 5 more months.
Should i or should i not?
Ponder i shall.
In my shell, i will.

i'm easily shaken.
A phone call or note and i start recalling things. I was surprised to get a text from him..
After a few weeks of solitude and not answering the very question that i asked.. One that meant a lot to me.
With that, i decided to shut things out. And yet, his birthday came and my heart softened.
wondering if he is coping fine. I'm not regretting... maybe not yet, but just worried, which i dont know why either.
Now suddenly your initiative caught me by surprise.. I'm glad in a way..